This song connected all God’s messages to me!
This song has had me in tears all morning,
https://open.spotify.com/track/3KwzdWIyI2KuXSe2eh98KU?si=f3815848a8584e89
Getting Started: Jeremy Camp
In the past months, I have been questioning WHY my faith isn’t as big or extravagant or strong as others. I have had multiple statements made to me by people that have had me questioning my faith, trust in God and all the things I thought I had learned from God recently. Over the last 2 weeks with extensive prayer, devotionals, reading scripture and seeking Gods advice on the things that others have said to me: asking Him to show me His truth and open my heart to correct such things others have said that I am (I won’t list them) but I don’t take these words lightly. I asked God to speak to me and show me any apart of me that may still be what I used to be. While my past and sometimes still current self has struggled with all these things, God showed me over the past 2 weeks that HE HAS changed my heart. And because humans are, well… human, their hurt, distrust, and own personal struggles with what I’ve done take time to heal. HOWEVER, just because I may not move as quickly or heal as quickly as others expect, just because God speaks to me differently than He is to others, just because I still have battles of fear: fear of others reactions, fear of failure, fear of doing the wrong thing and using God as the reason, fear of others opinions who deem their Christian walk as more “right” than mine… NONE OF THIS is Gods intent. Sometimes He says no because He’s protecting us, sometimes He uses others to shine light on things we need to change within ourselves, sometimes He allows others words to hurt us so that we turn to HIM and not the words of man. But here’s what has changed over the last couple of weeks thanks to God using His words, His people and His speaking to me through scripture: I NO LONGER BELIEVE SATANS LIES THAT I AM MY MISTAKES AND MY SIN. I struggle with certain aspects of temptation: depression, anger, fear, trust, and other people’s opinions. But those NO LONGER DEFINE who I am. For the past 1-2 months, with my indictment, constant reminders from others about what I’ve done and how horrible I am and how untrustworthy I have been, GOD HAS TURNED THE PAGE OF MY HEART TO ONE OF HOPE. He has given me a perspective of peace, and He has used multiple people to speak over me and show me that I AM WORTHY of doing His work now, despite my past, current or future mistakes. With that said: you don’t have to believe the words that leave my mouth, you can think what you want about me. You can hate me, be angry, call me names, talk about me. And it’s all ok!!! You are human just like me and I probably deserve a lot of those reactions. But I will no longer believe those things, I will continue to live FOR God and do what He asks of me. I WILL JOYFULLY PRAISE HIM IN THIS STORM because HE LIVES IN ME and my only job on this earth is not to convince you I have changed, it’s not to try and change people’s minds about me, it’s not for me to judge wha God is doing in your heart if you hate me- that’s between you and God! I am simply to love others and tell others what Christ has done for me, in me and for them. And that is exactly what I will do!
Much Love and High Tide!!
